writing in the midnight 4:13am , miss you

Dong Gua, why you don't message to me? It's not the matter about you're not a messager...Just you don't like to talk to me, isn't it? You prefer to message to others... I'm just counting that already been a week, you didn't reply to me... What else can I say? I'm scareing to go to the bed now. It's 4:00am in China. An hour ago I was sleeping, but a cockroach climbed on my finger...so it woke me up. Later I found it climbed to snowman,on the bed, its size is very big... Then I just spray it the poison,and change the blanket,pillow, clean all the old ones.I don't know why there're already kill over gross 5 big guys this week. One night I saw one hid in the gap of the ceiling in bathroom. I think they come out from there.I really wish you were here, only you're tall to touch it and cover the gap. It's hard to sleep back and now writing my diary.Even though you hate to talk to me, you don't want to share story with me, I still miss you, still put you in my heart. Still wish you are enjoy everyday in your family.