I have cleaned all buddies.Missing you and 2 other black cats.

Hey, how is everything going on, melon? There is about 2 weeks, the Christmas is coming. I took every toy stuffs a big shower , and wish them have a clean body to enjoy the Christmas. Then the moments makes me missbyou..No.matter how I tried to forget you, I failed.. I tried to not mention you in front of my relatives , but they always want to hear your news from me. Until one day, I met my 2 old best girl friends, I talked to them... But . no wonder , I can't forget you in my mind, everything about me effect me coming tears, and my tears with lots of enmotion. Everything about you is in my mind. May be is the reason I loved  and love you so much,  no one can change my heart. I don't want to accept any other else .

December. 1st, 2016

Well, a new month starting. Ya, time fast, time heals. I've felt a lit bit more peaceful than last damn month. I duno how about you. Yesterday Andre has post the new apartment photos to wechat, and he is going to find a new roomate to share the room.I duno what can I do but there must be nothing I can do. So I just hope to share the contact and expect someone see that.

Today, my mum finaly asked me why we have to apart. I bearly not gonna answer her. But for avoid her worries, and keeping ask, I said I did something make Kevin back to America.. I told her if I can't get what I have,I can't allow someone else have. That's me. Actually, I still feel pain for talking that with comming tears. But I bear my tears in eyes because I want to put this in my heart. I don't want to talk more by upset. I know that must be upset your parents too.

Hopefully I still can write my diary here to instead bothering you. You know that's who I am.