Now I feel afraid

Just so sucks, suffering, torture... I duno how to explain my feeling.

Thank you for coming back.

It's been a new week again, you've come back. What a surprise you sent me the lucky money and said miss me. At the moment, I was thinking if you're drunk.Then now what I saw in last week is the only way make me believe that was true... I really want to know where brings this wind to make all things changing? I just has no courage to be in hurt again... Do you know I felt so touching in the party that day when Jason talked to me in Chinese? He said he did love you so much. Though I could't say if he was kidding or not, at least the expression on his face was very sincere, and that was what I heard.
But suddenly I have no idea how complicated in my mind, perhaps I'm not used to being treated so nice by you. Even now the stuffs at home are broken... You don't get mad, but it's already increase my painful in such a great guilt feeling. I'm sorry to be annoying and bring this trouble when you come back. And I know I have no certificate to ask you to forgive me. The only one thing I can do is make myself come to sense, and do something better for you before another girl replace to me.